Friday, August 20, 2004
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
hehe.. this lazy person here hasn't been blogging faithfully.. i m so sorry.. had been quite tied up with school stuff & activities..
took bus14 home from orchard the other day.. took out paper n a pen.. i so wanted to pen down what i felt and pass this letter to him.. wrote.. 2 whole pages.. brought back many memories.. happy n sad ones.. never felt this lost before.. hated myself.. knew i couldn't pass him this very letter i wrote.. tore it up.. stuffed the bits n pieces of it back into my bag.. i couldn't bear to pass it to him.. was afraid to let him know it all.. the ride back was a cold & long one.. have made my up mind.. yupz i'm sure..
[s ilen tl y le tt i ng y ou sl ipa wa y hop in g it wo ul d n't hu rt t ha tmu ch a ny mor e]
adam khoo's workshop.. it totally inspired me.. really.. taught me things no teacher ever taught me.. love the 2nd & 3rd day best.. he shared with us his past experiences & those many stories kept on replaying itselves at the back of my mind.. it's lyk a broken vcd player which keeps on replaying the same movie over and over again.. those stories have really inspired me to go for more.. to aim high & anything is possible if you just keep on trying n never to give up.. haha.. adam khoo & gary was really corny lahz.. made up sick jokes so we can remember stuff better.. it was quite funny though.. i think wanling loves their jokes the most lahz.. that sick girl hor jing? jing will totally agree with me..
anw, i finally knew my goals in life.. felt really happy the night i sat down to really think about wad i wanna do when i grow up.. n when i say think.. i really meant think.. in the past.. i kept on changing my ambition until i myself gave up in trying to find my goal in life.. but that night when i sat down to draw out my life path.. i took my interests n match them with the jobs available on the market.. yupz.. i ended up with pediatrician.. it's basically a doctor that takes care of children.. my prayer had been answered.. the same prayer i have been praying every night before i hit the bed.. hehe.. for now it's *njc*.. *7points*.. *nus*.. to become a *Pediatrician*.. my 4 major goals in life.. m so going to work towards them.. from today onwards i shall hit the books n mug for 'o' levels next yr.. i will do it & i must do it.. *cheers* my piggie too has decided to mug with me right? hi^5! jia you!
the course also reminded me off the many times when we took our parents for granted.. the thought of it made me wan to say a million sorrys to both my parents for the many times i've let them down.. the thought of it made me wan to go up to them n give them a real big hug n say "I LOVE YOU!".. haha.. i really did it! it felt so nice.. it reminded me of when i was younger.. when i would blame my mum for not hugging me before she goes off to work.. hehe.. n wake up so early just to get that hug from her every morning.. althought i don't do that anymore.. it doesn't mean i don't love her.. i do.. i really do.. =) [mum i love you]
it had been an enriching experience worth remembering for life.. thanks adam khoo.. you have left footprints in my life and really hope you continue to go around s'pore to leave more footprints in the lives of the other students =)
/no exit-
cowie mooo-ed today at 6:13 PM
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