;we're looking up at the same nightsky

Thursday, December 24, 2009

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you, won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Wedding bells are ringing. Am really excited for both Rick & Delphine. I think they two look cute together and I can totally see them growing old together. Shoooou sweeeet :) hahaha! Congrates on your "big day" tmr.. Excite.

My Becky dear has been quite cheery and happy recently which makes me happy too :) you're the man josh. And Happy 20th birthday dearest!

Thinking back at what we've been through, I've come to realise that I've missed you every single day, since the day you entered the Army. But if you're happy like that then this is good enough for me too, good enough.

Thank goodness Darius is back. I think another full week of teaching and typing at the centre will drive me up the wall. I AM SOOOO EXHUASTED yet happy to see the fruits of my labour slowly taking shape. Yay!

Snorlax's back, finally. :)

Avatar is the bomb. You've got to catch it. Yes you!

I need my bed badly. *yawns*

>> you're so far around the bend

cowie mooo-ed today at 4:57 AM 0 Comment(s) ------ Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Today you were far away
And I, didn't ask you why
What could I say?

I was far away
You just walked away
And I, just watched you
What could I say?

I'm upset. Whatever happened to my adorable, head turning cow on the left. It's gone! :( Come back come back, wherever you are. chia will feed you more fresh grass. Promise.

Am into week8 of Trimester2A. Or was it week7? Somewhere in the middle. School's been alright.. just that 16hours of school in 2days can be a little mind-boggling at times. Am just glad my crazy week's over! :) Done with some of my tests, quiz and assignment. Just one more mid-terms and 2 assignments to go before my finals. For now, I'm happy to just take a little breather before I start studying again. Yay! Can't wait for the 1 week break next week.

I received a letter from Curtin Uni, offering me a place to study in Perth next year about a month back. Have been sitting on it ever since and only I know the reason why. I know this is a once in a lifetime opportunity and all but my heart wants me to stay. But I guess I'm worrying for nothing cause it wouldn't make a difference to you, would it? And silly me was hoping you would ask me to stay.

I have to send in my acceptance by end November. It's going to be for 1.5years at least, not considering what will happen after that. Job attachment? Honours? I'll be gone for a long time, how could I even bear to bring it up to you. It just seems unfair. I'm in such a dilemma that sometimes I lie awake at night, praying about where I should go from here. And everytime I ponder about it, I always come to a conclusion that you'll be better off without me.

To let you go, I should, shouldn't I?

It was Walking on a Dream, now it's We are the People by Empire of the Sun. The songs keep ringing at the back of my head. Love the two society misfits though.. like how they are as awkward as can be. Oh and did I tell you, I finally got down to creating my very own playlist on my ipod, thoroughly satisfied with it. Have been listening to it all afternoon. :)

Matt just delivered my Zipia goodies! Finally :) Me ish very happy. Love the black wedges I'd bought. Upset my dress was out of stock though. Woohoo! Matt's the best. We're ordering a 2nd batch soon. Excite.

>> you. i smile.

cowie mooo-ed today at 9:41 PM 0 Comment(s) ------ Monday, July 20, 2009

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

You seem so close sometimes, yet so distant at the same time that sometimes I feel as though I'm living a dream. As silly as it sounds, one which I wished I never have to wake up from.

I tripple love Tuesdays and Thursdays class with the kids from Twinkle Tots. I know I'm not suppose to have favourites but I really can't help it. Stacia & Julianna :) I'm actually sad my month of volunteering at Rainbow Centre's actually coming to an end :(

I'm down to my last week of holidays.. utterly upsetting.

And I got MGMT's Electric Feel stuck in my head.

>> Farewell my black balloon

cowie mooo-ed today at 1:26 AM 0 Comment(s) ------ Thursday, June 25, 2009

One may think we’re doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We’re losing ground with every passing day
We’re not okay

Holidays been good. Meet ups and just hanging out with friends. Helps take my mind off things for a bit but when everything comes undone, I'm left to face those feelings I'd fought so hard to hide.

This was the ending I had wanted wasn't it but I couldn't help but cry when I saw those snapshots. Have never seen you this happy since you had entered army. But it hurts so bad to know that maybe it had been my wishful thinking all along. That I was all alone in this from the start. That all we were came to nothing. A little upset I wasn't the one you'd want to share the joy of the end of the 9 long months of pain and torture you had to endure.

Don't get me wrong, I wasn't mad or angry. I understand why you did what you did. This was what I would have wanted. I know I had to choose between the two at the end. Better to hurt me than you. It wasn't easy, you have to know. If I had a choice, I wish I never have had to choose.

I wish I never had to let you go. But it's better this way cause I know when I'm gone, you'll probably meet someone better, someone who would be there for you, someone who will make you smile. You deserve so much better, so much better than me.

Somebody, anybody, take me back to the start.

On a lighter note, I'm going to Rainbow centre to help out next week! So exciting! Can't wait to shower love on those God-sent, adorable children. :) And it brings me joy to know that I too in my own small ways, can help the less fortunate. I'm going for my first Cambodia mission trip meeting tomorrow too! Looks like the trip is taking shape. :)

I've been listening to alot of Fleet Foxes, The Shins, The National, The Kills and The Perishers. Totally addictive. This is really all Sarah's fault. Good fault though. Haha!

Admist the heartbreaks and tears, I know God has a greater plan ahead for me. chia shall wait upon the Lord. And thank you Lord for cuddly, lovely, adorable, sweet friends. :)

>> and I watch you as you slip away

cowie mooo-ed today at 1:06 AM 0 Comment(s) ------ Friday, June 12, 2009

And it only hurts, when you cry
I'm alone inside, when there's tears in your eyes
I can't hide and say I'm fine
But it only hurts, when you cry

Year 1 of uni life is finally OVER! *throws punches in the air* wooohooo! feels like some kind of liberation. 3 papers back to back was no joke at all. I literally saw stars after my Accounting (Financial) 250 paper yesterday. Tough paper but I kind of expected it, gave it my all. Let's see where that takes me.

Chillin' out at Timbre with yuxun and jingyi was nice :) good food and great music. Thanks for asking me out! Though I was like super shagged, I had fun! :)

Thanks so much people for looking out for me during my exams. Asking me whether I was alright and cheering me on. Love you people. Sorry for having to worry you guys. I'm fine really. Whatever am I to do without you people. Ahhh.. I miss hanging out with my friends. Been couped up at home burried among my stack of books. Good to be able to smell freedom at last :)

I need to settle my transfer, start driving again, register for Semester 2, check whether Church mission trip to Cambodia is still on, help out at Rainbow Centre and spend lots of quality time with friends and family.

Can't wait for tomorrow. Finally get to hang out with you weird animals :)

Finally, after 9 long months.. the day has finally arrived. You have no idea how proud I am of you. I really am :) Well done, Sir!

I guess it's just me, my brother and the whole house for 10days. Nice.

>> I'm going back to the start

cowie mooo-ed today at 2:06 AM 0 Comment(s) ------ Saturday, May 16, 2009

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

i'm trying so hard to be strong, to be brave, I really am. Not think too much when you're gone. Smile though it hurts so much deep down inside. Pretend everything's alright even when things aren't. But I guess this is the only way I can support you for now. But I'm just a hopeless girl sometimes and you have no idea how much I hate myself for that.

I want this semester to end so badly. Like now. I want to forget everything, fly to Aussie and start anew. I want to smile like I used to. Sometimes I wished we went back to the start.

There are things I cannot say, there are feelings I don't show. But I try to be there most of the time. I don't know whether it means anything to you but it's all I've got and I'm leaving it for you.

3 more weeks. I don't know what I'm counting down to anymore. Dear time, I need you to fly. Pretty please?

I think I need to do something for myself, for once. I have dragged it long enough. My parents are starting to ask questions. I need to get my applications done as soon as my finals end. Honestly, I don't know how much I want this anymore. I can't believe I'm even hesitating cause it has always been my dream.

First class honours, I must. I want to do this for mummy.

I miss my animal friends so so so much :( it's times like these when I wished you guys were around to keep me warm and loved. Have fun in NY! :)

>> there's always something more you wished he said

cowie mooo-ed today at 11:45 PM 0 Comment(s) ------ Saturday, May 02, 2009

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

Vertical Horizon's playing at the Singapore Flyer for Beerfest Asia 2009 tomorrow! JS, you're the best! :) Something to look forward to after 6hours of Taxation lecture.

you're back.. but why do I feel as if you were gone. I can't figure whether you were ever really there at all, sometimes. Then you got me thinking.. maybe it's time I'd let you go. Only because I don't want to be the one to have to leave you behind. Before it's all too late. If any hearts were to be broken, let it be mine.

Spongebob: What do you usually do when I'm gone Patrick?
Patrick: Wait for you to come back.

And that's all I have been doing all my life, I have come to realise. The latter.

>> with or without you, without.

cowie mooo-ed today at 1:50 AM 0 Comment(s) ------